Posted by steph609 on 2015/06/05 under Uncategorized Over thinking…my specialty. I am sure I am not the only one who does it however its hard to avoid. I think about all the good memories of us. How we used to hang out all the time and the things you used to tell me. How you wanted to talk to me and you were attracted to me. You say you like me but just aren’t ready and it makes me question what happened? ever since you got transferred for the promotion Ive been nothing but happy for you. I feel like you will never be ready or you will find someone else. you say you won’t sleep with me because you have more respect for me that you can’t just sleep to me without the promise of something more but is that really true? or just an excuse to keep me in the friend zone. I find that my problem with the situation is no confidence in myself. Which is why you can be doing nothing and I automatically think you are with someone else. I believe if I start working on myself and really trying that i will be ok with everything..at least I hope. I should be happy I have someone as friend, such a good friend yet I’m not satisfied. It hurts to be your friend to not know or to know if you are sleeping with someone else. I honestly don’t think you would tell me if you did because you know how much it would hurt. I sit here and question myself every day because being your friend is hard. I am not as strong as I thought I was. I real hope that one day we can end up together but I also think since i want this so bad I will never get it. Point is its time to FOCUS on ME. Time for me to FIND MYSELF. i need to realized that it is ok to be alone and that I will be ok no matter what happens. Also to stop expecting things and I won’t be so disappointed with the results. However, it is easier said than done, but I got this! and those of you who read this and over think everything just like me, remember that “we stop looking for monsters under the bed when we realize they are inside of us.” Don’t let that monster called over thinking control you.